Pregnancy Diaries - Month 4 - Baby Avocado

It's stressful being pregnant. I'm constantly worried that something bad is going to happen. Every cramp, every little bit of blood can throw me into a full-blown panic attack. 

But then I think, all this negativity can't be good for my baby. So whenever I feel stressed out, I think about how wonderful it will be to hold my baby in my arms. I do my best to keep active and eat healthy foods. It's the least I can do for the little one growing inside of me.

I haven't had too many mood swings like they show in the movies. If anything, I'm just more weepy. Everything makes me cry omg. For instance, my coworker shared a story about how her new boyfriend has the same birthday as her husband who passed away. I couldn't stop crying. It was so sad yet beautiful and poetic. OMG! Since I rarely show sadness at work, my corker was shocked and worried for me. If she only knew.

I'm not sure when I want to tell the world that we're expecting. I of course want to share the joy, but I'm also so worried that something will happen and that I'll have to tell people bad news. . .oops, there I go again being negative. Or am I just being realistic? Well, whatever the case, I'm going to be positive an focus on delivering a healthy baby in 5 months. 

Here's our little avocado at 16 weeks! Grow, Baby, grow!